Sleep. Who needs it?

I haven't been sleeping well lately.Which is totally unlike me. I'm a solid sleeper with a very consistent sleeping schedule. I don't have a TV in my room and I prefer to either take a bath or read a book right before bed. I prefer my room to be pitch black and cool, with a window cracked or a fan on. Its easy for me to fall asleep and stay asleep. At least that's how it used to be.

I guess I have a lot on my mind lately with my upcoming races and other stuff. Yeah. Actually, its the "other stuff" that's got me tossing and turning I think. 

Other Stuff #1:
My dad just got out of the hospital. He had open heart surgery. An aortic valve replacement and a triple bypass to be specific. The triple bypass was a "buy 2 get 1 free" deal. That's right. The docs decided to super-size his procedure from a double to a triple on the operating table. How's that for a bargain? And to top things off he's been diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma, a rare blood cancer.

I'm really not sure what to think about all this just yet. It hasn't really settled in. I do know that life has been more intense lately and I have been finding ways to distract myself from it. I've been aching to run more, aching to push more, and strangely enough needing to feel the hurt more. I'm hoping my upcoming races will be cathartic in a way. A much needed release from some of these strangulating emotions. 

Other Stuff #2:
The kids have been home ALL SUMMER and I am ready to send them back to school. Don't get me wrong. I love my kids "more than all the stars in the universe." (something I say to them every day), but their behavior and antics this summer is enough to drive me seriously insane. I need a vacation. 

Other Stuff #3:
The New York City Barefoot Run - Yeah. If there's only one race I could race this year this would be it. Just the thought of fifty, a hundred, or maybe even a thousand other freaks like myself running completely barefoot in an event crowned by some of the biggest barefoot/minimal icons and mentors is enough to make this girl coregasm. And then, on the other hand, looking at the cost of airfare, hotel room, taxi cabs, meals and drinks for the weekend was enough to make me shit my pants. If it weren't for such a crappy economy our business might have made enough this year to justify my going. But, it didn't. So I guess I should be thankful that we are at least still in business and surviving this economy, although not nearly as comfortably as we were six years ago. But all that means: No NYC Barefoot Run for me. Even the hard sell on my husband wasn't enough to convince him this is a year for extra frivolous spending. And the hard sell even included lots of sex. As much sex as he wanted. It didn't work. Damn. What's up with that?

Thanks for listening to my rant. Sometimes I just got to get it out.
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  1. Im sorry to read what happened to your father. I hope now He’ll get better.
    It’s very difficult to rest properly when so many things are going on.
    About the barefoot running in NYC, it sounds awesome.
    It’s a shame if you can’t make it, Bcos you deserve it!!

    Good luck with the dealing :-)

  2. Sorry to hear about your dad. I've been active with the Team in Training organization for about 5 years now, both in their running and hiking programs (I'm a hike coach now). Both my wife's grandmothers had blood cancers and a college friend was diagnosed with non-Hodgkins Lymphoma a few years back, thankfully currently in remission after chemo. It's been a great way to apply my love of running and hiking toward a worthy cause. Though it can be helpful to be able to relate to other participants since most know someone with (or have) a blood cancer, I've found a pretty big side benefit is that the group of people who choose to participate self-selects to be some of the friendliest, passionate people around. I believe there's a Sacramento chapter, should you want to get involved.

    Run (and rant) smiley :)

  3. Thanks so much, Brahm! I think I might look into that. I appreciate you passing the info on.

  4. Hey Krista,

    So sorry to hear about your Dad's medical issues. It's no wonder you're having problems sleeping.

    I think your idea of throwing yourself into running and training will provide you with some relief from this stress. I know it's helped me in the past during very stressful times like what you're going through.

    I hope they can treat his cancer and that he's feeling better and healing from the heart surgery.

    Hang in there.



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